Breaking the silence

I’ve been silent too long on these pages so I am going to force myself to sit in front of my computer and explain what’s been happening. Over the summer, the demands on my time and energy have pushed aside blogging. Something had to give. I’ve also felt that I really did not have a lot of insight to inject into the blogosphere, especially about my own yoga practice or yoga as a part of US mainstream culture or the DC yoga scene. I had a couple of drafts in the hopper and could never focus enough to get them done.

Honestly, I was battling through some injuries that kept me from going to yoga class. I developed a problem with my iliopsoas and SI joint, this time on the right side. I stopped going to yoga class and kept up treatment with my chiropractor. But I also developed a problem with my left knee about the same time (early September), which has gradually gotten worse. I first felt a twinge of pain in the knee, but did not think that it was anything serious [“Must have twisted my knee in my yoga classes”]. I started  taking Aleve in the morning and evening to get by. I saw my orthopedic surgeon as soon as I could get an appointment. He examined it and found some inflammation, but nothing showed up on the x-rays. He injected cortisone. I was supposed to wait 2-3 weeks and if there was no improvement, I should get an MRI and go back to see him. The idea being that I may have some cartilage floating around in there, and would need do another arthroscopic surgery to clean up my knee, as with my right knee.  My doctor told me to stick with doing stationary bike for exercise and keep my yoga simple so that I do not stress my knee joint.

I found myself in a kind of  downward spiral: I didn’t go to yoga class to avoid worsening my core (iliopsoas) issues, so my neuropathy worsened; my neuropathy led to bad body mechanics (walking), which causes pain in my knee; I didn’t exercise to avoid hurting my knee, which reduced my stamina and resilience; my general fatigue reduced my ability to manage and tolerate pain; my pain kept me from sleeping early and soundly and led to sleep deprivation, which turned me into a zombie during the day. That sounds like a familiar formula — I went through something like it last year.

I think I have things under control now, thanks to working with my chiropractor and my body worker, and monitoring my symptoms. I have never stopped doing my evening routine of self-massage, hip openers, stretches and restorative poses so I have not stopped doing yoga. If anything, it’s what keeps me going physically, emotionally, intellectually, psychologically.

And in August, my desktop’s hard disk went out, which required installing the Windows operating system, my applications, working files and music. I am still trying to get the computer back to where I feel that it meets all my needs. Fortunately, having a laptop kept me going with e-mails and other essentials.

In any case, I did not feel much like blogging during these past six weeks. I’ve wanted to make some changes in the layout and features, which have had only minor tweaks from the original WordPress template, but that’s going to have to wait for a while. Just maintaining my websites takes a lot of time.